inertia

[philaros]

Don't try to tell me that your feet are made of lead
Two choices, hang back or get ahead,
Lead the pack, get it in your head to
Keep on moving, keep on moving
Ha ha haaa, yeah

"Inertia", The Wonder Stuff

Inertia has been holding me back for months. Inertia is another name for myself. "It's not a boy's name, it's not a girl's name / Inertia I'd call my child all the same." As the Wonder Stuff point out, moving forward has its own inertia. I just need to overcome the inertia of rest. Convert my potential into kinetic.

I have a little movement in some areas; you've seen some of that, with so many posts devoted to music and now with some of that writing being done for KEXP and not just for myself. I need movement in several other areas, important areas. But I have such trouble getting going. I could use a push. Can you help?

Lift your foot. Take a step. Lift the other foot, take another step. Now you're walking. You can move. You have motivation. You choose not to move, you fear where the path leads, or you shirk from following it because it looks steep. When the ground crumbles behind you, beneath you, will you finally step forward? Will you take a leap? Or will you let inertia pull you down, let yourself slide away with the ground?

This is not directed at anyone but myself. I'm just getting the thoughts out of my head, they take up too much room, they crowd out the useful ones, they add to the weight of inertia holding me down, in place. Words bind me and ground me, words open me and free me. Words are not the problem, I am the problem, I am the solution. Friends help me find the solution, friends help me move forward, friends help me overcome the inertia that is myself and be the inertia that is also myself. Immovable object, irresistible force. 

Remember you can write. Remember you've kept journals all these years just for this purpose, to formulate your thoughts, to formalize your thoughts, to wrestle the endless gyres into structured paragraphs with beginning and importantly with end. The word spoken cannot be unsaid. Words have movement. Words move your thoughts. Words let you move and shape and structure and reorder and analyze and interpret and understand your thoughts. Use your words. Were you not born with words? Perhaps not, but the being who you are has always had words, cannot remember and is no longer the being who could not read, who did not have words. Be who you are. Become who you want to be. 

Get it in your head to keep on moving, keep on moving.